today i woke up at around 1.10om.. and the moment i woke up.. OUCH!!! both my legs and arms muscles are aching!!! cos i piggy back the nek nek at east coast as she was having leg cramps thn i have to piggy back her quite a distance.. this is my first time piggy backing a person and walk so far.. so nek nek you beeter treat me good! you own me once! haha.. so i decided to msg her and surprisingly she jus woke up.. so i ask her is she packing her room today and she said yes.. so i ask does she need help in packing and she said yes again.. so afer my lunch and bathing, off i go to her hse.. reach her hse i wan to FAINTS! so many stuff lying on the floor.. so i help her to pack and throw away quite a lot of stuff.. don know why she wan to keep so many things that are useless.. haha.. she can be KARANG KUNI already.. so many rubbish to throw.. will really vomit blood when packing her stuff.. and thn oso help her to file her notes.. thn her mum and her call me maria especially he nek nek.. ask me do these and do that.. after packing her parents ask me to go dinner with them.. at first i don really wish to go cos will feel kind of arkward but in the end i still go with them.. on our way to bt timah for dinner suddenly VROOM! a LAMBO pass by.. haha.. we went to a peranakan restaurant for dinner. my first time there.. the food is nice and the price is reasonable.. i think i will go back there again.. but we waited for some time for the food to come cos the place is damn crowded..
quite like her family.. cos is very diff frm mine.. or can say i far too different. it will never ever happen to my family.. never.. today something pissed me off before i left the hse.. everytime thngs repeat itself again i feel like confronting you yet i chose to remain silent cos i don wan things to get worse.. but time and time again you did this to me again.. why mus you always do things behind my back which irritates me.. why do you have to know everything abt what is happening to me and even my friends.. why do you always have to intrude my privacy and my life.. can't you jus give me space to breathe and a little freedom.. i feel my heart is so heavy everytime this things happen.. i know you might be reading this but i still have to write out everything i feel for me to vent out.. i think 'TRUST' this word has never came into your heart.. i feel that you can never learn to trust me or dad.. you also never learn to trust and respect my life and privacy.. why do you always control me and being so demanding.. i am already a grown up teen and i know what to do and what not to do. but you chose the hard way.. if there is really 1 day i can no longer take it, i scared i will be regret of what i will do maybe you will even regret more.. i made a promise to myself.. from now on, you will never get to know what is happening to me.. i make sure you will not have the chance to find out anything.. nothing at all.. is all because of the ways you handle my matters.. you made me do this.. things will never be the same again.
