today i woke up late at about 9am until justin msg me.. GOSH! I snooze for 1 hour.. when i saw his msg i jump out of the bed and quickly prepared to go to school to wait for the nek nek to come, but who knows she reach earlier than me.. It wasn't a good night for me yesterday.. is been a long time since I have nightmares.. the nightmare was very scary.. I know that I am having nightmares and I so much wanted to wake up.. I struggled in my dreams but I just couldn't wake up, i can feel that tears actually roll down to my face at that moment.. I tried but i just can't! the scene keep appearing in my mind and thoughts is running wild.. when baobei saw me at the locker area she can sense i feel very shagged so I told her.. when i am telling her i so much wanted to cry out but I just bear with it.. cos i don wan to spoil the day since is the starting of day and nek nek came back to school.. I so much wanted to let it out but I just control.. I thought that i would be fine till end of school but the scene keep flashing back.. I feel so tired in school and almost feeling asleep.. when i reached home, it got worse.. I'm all alone.. The fear in my heart, was thinking what if something bad is really going to happen... what will I do and what will happen.. the scene just keep coming back.. how i wish that it was not there at all.. but I can't control it.. when will the scene goes away..? i really have no ideas, i am so helpless now......
