things hasn't been good for me since the past few days.. on tues dad going to the hospital with mum for his check up.. as for me, mum ask me to go sch don skip lesson so i no choice but to go sch.. I tot i will be fine and being strong in front.. but until i msg mum ask ask her abt dad's condition.. i start to break down.. i really worry for dad and i just cried out.. I tot everything will be fine after seeing mum's msg.. but who knows.. when we were at horizon waiting or the seminar mum msg me and saying that dad has bubbles in his liver.. I WAS LOST! I DON KNOW HOW TO REACT! tears just keep flowing down from my eyes.. thn nek nek bring me out of the classroom and pulled me to the corridor.. i jus cried in her arms.. i don know why but i jus can't stop.. should i say i ache for my dad or i'm jus thinking too much and worry for me dad.. he need to go back to the hospital for further check up by doing ultra sound.. all we can do know is to wait and see what is the result.. and I can do now is to accompany him and remind him to cut down smoking.. I have to be strong! I keep telling myself i have to BE STRONG and i MUST!! I will and wants to hang on but how long can i do that.. I jus hope that everything will be fine and over soon.. I couldn't get myself to sleep that night.. Is really very tough and i manage to sleep at 6am+ which i even know that granny has woke up.. I HAVE TO BE STRONG!!! and I MUST BE STRONG..
today went to sch as per normal.. but for the earlier part i was feeling very tired and restless.. I just feel tired.. wanted to slp but some how i don wan.. cos i wan to be there for nek nek and i really did.. during demo i hardly can hang on but i tried to.. and i oso being trying hard to make her smile.. i hope she can feel it.. after sch don feel like going home, so I decided to accompany nek nek to go home while the rest went to baobei hse for mj session.. but is ok.. my nek nek come first! we parted at je station thn me, neknek, justin, nic and kelvin take the same line.. me, neknek and justin drop off at outram and we bring the day wei to SGH as he don know how to go.. so the kind soul of me bring him go.. haha.. after we bring him to SGH we went to the pasar malam nearby as the both of us got cravings for muah chee~!! so we bought our food and sit down to eat.. the both of us pattern is back! SAME FOOD CRAVINGS AND SAME THINKING AT THE SAME TIME! haha.. after that we went to take bus to bt merah cos she wants to eat pizza hut which is her very very long cravings.. after ordering we look for a seat and sit down.. and the stupid nek nek.. ask me how much she owe me $$$ thn i kind enough to tell her how much and help me to save as well.. but who knows the crazy me as her to help me save money.. thn she very "KIND" enough to control my finance.. and very "KIND" enough to keep my atm cards.. and to hand her part of my allowance every month for her to help me save up.. after much persuasion she decided to return me my debit card.. the one and only for the next few months.. after she confiscate my cards i keep grumbling at her and nag and nag at her.. haha.. she is so HARSH!!!! reach her house ask her to go bath fast fast thn we had pizza hut for our dinner.. she lied to me! she said got COKE but don have.. huhuhu.. after dinner, we went to her room and watch tv play play.. she stupid and SMALL GAS! don wan to share her blanky with me.. haha.. lying on her bed while watching tv thn she keep ka ciao me don let me fall asleep.. pinch me again and draw away the blanket.. SHE JUST DON LET ME SLEEP!!! thn i just nuah at her bed lor.. haha.. decided to left at 11.15pm and off i go back home..
