I can't say much and there is nothing for me to do as well.. but a decision that I need to make which I don know which one to chose.. I know how mum felt and I chose to keep quiet.. I don wan to say anything to her also but deep inside my heart I know the feeling is very terrible.. I'm actually putting a strong front.. some how I can't really bring myself to smile.. during my way home in the bus I just feel like crying but I keep holding back my tears.. I don wan mum to know.. In fact I don wan anyone to know as I really don wan them to worry.. the decisions lies with me now..
