well.. just some thoughts hanging around my mind.. soon really soon I wish that the thoughts will gradually drifted away from me.. no one to tell what i am thinking and I just can express my thoughts over here.. in the first place this post doesn't mean to pin point anyone or any matter.. just that this is from my point of view and how I look at things.. now i started to feel that humans can be very contridicting of what they say.. in the first place they can say good words about you thinking that what you do is of a great help of something pleasent.. but later when things occurred they will start saying that all those things you do is actually kinda of unpleasent. well, i really can't say anything as this is what ppl think and i can't just change their thinking.. or perhaps maybe when a person did something wrong they will change the view of you.. though you might be given another chance.. but if you do not know what ppl think of you, you can't change to a better person.. improve from the past.. well, it doesn't matter much to me anymore.. from now on.. I got to be independent.. no more expectation anymore.. don expect that when you fall ppl will jus pick you up.. got to learn standing up once again by myself.. don also think of people will lending you a helping hand.. i really need to depend on myself.. maybe from now on.. people will just get to see the only side of me.. nothing else.. hoping that i can change after so much obstacles.. I really need time to adjust.. no one but only I can help myself.. from now on.. it will be just me and only me.. and maybe from now, i shall stop initiating on certain things.. though i feel tired but life just got to go on.. so why not be more optimistic..? got to try hard!
