my heart felt heavy today.. last time everyday I keen on going sch meeting with my classmates.. but know recently it has changed.. dreaded to go school or attachement.. honestly speaking I am feeling kind of cranky now.. today went to 3 crematorium to pay respect to my yeye and my great grandparents.. saw a couple of tablet and I feel so sad.. a twins that is born on the day and died on the same day.. there is a baby which is only a few months and she passed away.. but a verse that is on the tablet which is on JOBS.. I find it quite meaningful.. though is a blessings to live in this world but God wants the best of blessing for us.. maybe going up the heaven with Him is the best blessing that the baby have.. after finisg all the visiting we went to have lunch at far eas sq with auntie ruth and her family and I went home to take a nap after that.. woke up and I went for dinner with my parents at a coffeshop near bb central area.. a newly open western food "Botak Jones".. queue for quite some time but the food taste nice.. seriously speaking I am feeling very VEXED now!!! RAHS!!!!! in their mouth saying they are your friends but ended up leaving you aside.. I need affirmations but no one can give me.. ended up I feel disappointed.. I am really trying very hard to adapt.. hard till sometimes I feel so suffocating..
