starting of attachment this week.. is was rather shagged but fun being the bartender for the past 3 days.. I just can't stand that we are actually doing free labour for attachment and furthermore we still need to pay for our attachment.. will update more when I got the time!
you may see me laughing and smiling.. but you will never know that when it is fake and the what is behind the smile.. things changes and will never be the same like the past.. I tried hard but is difficult.. sometimes i feel disappointed but i can't do anything.. is different and I really got to learn to adapt it.. who can I share all my grudges? no one.. is only by myself.. I'm tired but I still got to hang on.. but why does it affect me so much? I am happy now but sometimes thoughts will come to my mind.. some times i wish to run away but it is not a way to avoid it.. what can I do?
