today I had kind of a very bad day.. seems to be the most cranky day of my life.. everything was a mistake! I shld not go to the boat show.. I felt worse today! it was raining when I make my way there and I am drenched.. having a headache after the rain.. why do i feel that many people start leaving me.. even my parents might be going to china due to dad's work and this time round mum is going along.. if everything confirm they will leave during june.. besides that today I just feel completely OUT!!! everyone having their own partner and I can't say anything.. I give my promise that I will change and I tried.. but ended up all I can do is sitting at a corner while all of you having something to talk about.. I can't fit in neither do I feel comfortable with you all now.. what have i really done to deserve all these?where is everyone when i needed someone to talk to? do you know I felt very torturing just now saying nothing but just continue walking.. until to the point that I can no longer take it and walk away.. shedding my tears behind till my way home? how long can I still take it? I am bearing really very hard.. I was once told that I will not feel left out but why now I feel so lonely? while people can laughing away? is my presence not important or worthless at all?
