months has pass and perhaps things has turn better.. but grandma's health has been deteriorating.. through this months of hardships maybe I have really grown up and be more matured in ways of thinking.. I know I still have my lovely family and friends around me to be there for me.. someone said that my friends are there for me but is in emotionally not physically which I found that is quite true.. everybody is busy with their lifes, work, studying or relationship.. well, sometimes I do really need a person presence there but no avail.. I am quite suprised that I can actually hold back when such a event happen to me.. the one time i broke down is only the day when it turn everything upside down. and that's it! no one has seen me in such a state after that time.. everything will just buried down under.. JASLIN IS A BIG GIRL NOW!
